What is "NORMAL"?

Everyone talks about the "new normal" after you lose a child. I don't believe "normal" will ever return to my house after my 18 year old son, Max, was killed in a car crash on 8/6/10. "Normal Died With Max", and this blog is about the life I have without him.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Seasons Change

Living in Kansas gives the opportunity to feel all four seasons.  Sometimes they are so extreme, it gives you the opportunity to HATE all four seasons!!  Summers over 100 degrees, crisp falls, ice storms & blizzards in the winter, and flowers and green in the spring, along with tornadoes & thunderstorms!

When thinking about seasons of life, sometimes they are not so easily defined, especially when you are living in them.  I am 42, and looking back over my life, I see many different seasons.  It's been nearly 14 months since Max was killed in a car crash, and I just yesterday realized that this is a season of sorrow in my life.  My beautiful summer with a family of four suddenly went to icy winter when I got the news of Max's fatal crash.  It changed just that fast, in the blink of an eye.  But I was so numb and so submerged in pain, that I didn't realize that one event marked the changing of a season in my life.  I didn't realize I was living in a beautiful summer until it changed to winter ...

What season are you in right now?  Things rolling along fairly smooth?  Enjoy the sunshine, friend.  Living in the cold of winter?  Hang on through the sorrow, because spring is coming again.  I am learning to be present in whatever moment I am in ... because even in the deepest seasons of sorrow, there are glimpses of sunshine.  God gave us examples in Scripture of those living in seasons of sorrow and they demonstrate HOW to make it through ... by crying out to our Father in Heaven ... giving him our pain and our disappointment, but rehearsing our trust in Him that He holds us safely in His hands regardless.  The best thing about ANY season?  It *does* come to an end and a new one begins ...

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