Releasing My Grocery Fairy

I am pleased to tell you that I have released my grocery fairy so that she can be free to serve others with her tremendous gifts and compassion.  I have told you about her before ... she stepped in very quickly after Max died and started doing all the grocery shopping for my family.

The trips to the grocery store for me were gut wrenching ... I would walk down the aisles and see things I used to buy for Max that were no longer needed in my house, or the music on the overhead system would set off tears, or I would see someone I knew who wanted to extend their sympathies or see someone I didn't know that I would have to tell about Max's death.  I was barely able to pull myself out of bed some days right after Max died, much less get ready, make a list, go to the store, buy everything, come home, unload, and put it all away.  Unless you have been there, you cannot fathom how much *energy* that all takes when you are deep in grief.  Could I have done it if I needed to?? YES.  But my wonderful grocery fairy insisted that there was no need for that kind of stress when she could easily do this for our family.

The last few weeks, I have really felt like I am getting my feet back under me.  I have been to the store several times successfully (meaning without tears or great distress).   I cannot say 'thank you' enough to Gwen Whittit for all she has done for me.  She has accumulated many jewels in her crown for heaven on the many trips to the store for me.  I will forever be grateful to her and humbled by her service.  I could never repay her for the hours and gifts she gave us.  I anticipate being able to "pay it forward" in the future, knowing what a great need this fills for a grieving family.  Gwen, you are a beautiful soul and I think you are fantastic!!