Waiting

Originally posted as a facebook note 12/13/10 - Max died 8/6/10.  They did an autopsy THAT DAY and released his body.  And now, 18+ weeks later, I am still waiting on the autopsy results.  I called after several weeks just to get an idea of long until it came in the mail, because I was caught off guard when the death certificate came and it caused a major melt down.  I was told at that time that it would be 12 weeks.  It is 18+ weeks later, and the gal I talked to today said they are just getting to the JUNE cases.  THEN DON'T TELL ME 12 WEEKS IF IT'S REALLY GOING TO BE 6 MONTHS!  They have no idea the daily stress of walking to the mailbox, wondering if it's going to be in there, looking through each piece of mail, realizing it's not there, and then repeating that day after day after day.  (Although they might now, because I cried and told her a little about it...)

The autopsy results are the final piece we are waiting for to have all the information about how Max died.   There are so many ways to torture a grieving parent ... and this is one of them.  So now that I know that they are so far behind, I will stop looking for the dang thing every day.  Maybe I can breathe easier for a few weeks when I go out to the mailbox