What is "NORMAL"?

Everyone talks about the "new normal" after you lose a child. I don't believe "normal" will ever return to my house after my 18 year old son, Max, was killed in a car crash on 8/6/10. "Normal Died With Max", and this blog is about the life I have without him.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

My Mom is so cool!

Originally posted as a facebook note on 9/21/10 - The verse I claimed from the very first minutes of learning Max was killed in a car wreck is Psalm 139:16 - "All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be".  I had Wesley print it out for me, and I carried that piece of paper clenched in my hand for the entire first day, and through the days that followed as we were consumed with visitors and planning the funeral.  I clung to the knowledge that God is in control, and knew the number of Max's days before one of them came to be, and he knew exactly when, where, and how Max William would die.

My mom came by today and said she counted Max's days - 6,621.  He was with us on earth, it was written in God's book, that Max would have 6,621 days here before he was taken to heaven.

She is getting Psalm 139:16 and the number 6,621 put on a charm.  She was worried people would think it was morbid.  First of all, WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK, and secondly, it is the most tender, intimate fact that I held on to that awful day - I think it is a deep gesture of love that she wants to carry that around on her necklace!

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