What is "NORMAL"?

Everyone talks about the "new normal" after you lose a child. I don't believe "normal" will ever return to my house after my 18 year old son, Max, was killed in a car crash on 8/6/10. "Normal Died With Max", and this blog is about the life I have without him.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Wrapping Presents

Originally written as a facebook note 12/17/10 - I am extra weepy today.  I know it's a combination of things - I don't feel well, Christmas is getting closer, I wrote the donor letter last night, and Todd went out to the funeral home today and signed the Rose Bowl parade card and received Max's rose.

I wrapped a few presents today.  I thought the hard part would be not having any under the tree for Max.  In reality, the hardest part today was gifts I wrapped for other people.  The gift tag always read from "Todd, Pam, Max, & Wesley".  Not this year.  So each time I wrote a tag without Max's name on it, I cried.

I recycle cards and bows each year, and found a few tags I had saved with "To Max" on them.

Todd & I are going to watch movies tonight and try to escape reality for awhile.  I will be SO GLAD when the holidays are over and this constant reminder that Max isn't here for Christmas this year.

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