What is "NORMAL"?

Everyone talks about the "new normal" after you lose a child. I don't believe "normal" will ever return to my house after my 18 year old son, Max, was killed in a car crash on 8/6/10. "Normal Died With Max", and this blog is about the life I have without him.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I Need a new f'ing blender - GRIEF killed mine!

Originally posted as a facebook note on 10/10/10 - I have had a problem with my blender the last few times I have tried to make a smoothie, the bottom comes off and makes a mess.  Nate Matt made my last smoothie, the day Max died.  So today, I decide I don't want food, but maybe I will try a smoothie.  I ask Todd to help me because the blender doesn't stay together when I try to do it.  He says no, I am perfectly capable.  I tell him NATE made me a smoothie, and he says that is because Nate is a nice guy.  LOL.  (He is trying to watch the Chiefs game!)  He tightens the bottom, says I cannot mess it up, and then leaves me.  You can see where this is going, right?  I put my smoothie together, blend it, lift it straight up, and the bottom comes off making a mess.  So I am PISSED, yelling at Todd, he comes in yelling at me because I obviously did something to the blender, and we are yelling at each other and crying.  So I told him to get out, just GET OUT as he is trying to apologize, and I am cleaning up the mess.  I pitched the blender into the trash as he is now laughing, and I am getting more and more upset.  So my first attempt at a smoothie since the day Max died was a complete bomb, and we need a new blender.   I managed to save maybe three gulps of my smoothie, so I won't starve.   I did make up with Todd, it wasn't his fault or mine.  Just a stupid thing that the feelings of grief allowed to spin out of control.

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